"It just hit me, I am turning 18 next year. 18 years old. Wow. Time moves way too fast. My best friend is moving to Iceland to study art or something like that..in another country..A friend of mine is going to be an surgeon, I will probably never met the guy again. Never. My friends whom I love so much,their goals that I adore, envying; growing up to be a nurse, a pediatrician, a journalist. I am 17 and the pressure of knowing what I want to be is huge. It is like it is pushing me down, crushing me and making me loose my breath.
I am going to miss High School, miss being just 17 years old, not worrying about bills and taxes and work. Right now, my biggest concern is getting A's, keeping curfew and not spending too much money on homecoming dresses. I am going to miss all of this so much. My mom once told me that I should enjoy going to school, should enjoy only having to worry about mathtests instead of work, getting on the bus in time instead of my children running into the street, what to wear to prom instead of salary. I guess she was right. Still, it is hard enjoying getting D's and F's and hear the alarm wake me up at 6:15 every morning. It's hard to enjoy getting grounded for reading all night before a huge test, for not vacuuming on Saturdays, for holding a boy's hand.
Right now, I love my life. I truly do. I miss my people, course I do. I miss Norway, my house, the golf course right by, the air, the water, the food, not gaining weight, not running after school every day, not being injured. I miss my old life, at the same time, I LOVE my new life just as much.
In just five years, all of my old friends are going to be spread all over Norway, maybe even all over the world. I probably won't see half of them again after the next couple of years. Never. However, I know something they don't, they are going to do great. Not only my extremely gifted sister, or my amazingly intelligent friends at school, but also the ones who are going to college next year, graduating one year early cuz they can. I know so many people who I know is going to do great, who I know is going to end up with exactly what they wanted. I know that their dreams will come true, for the most part. Working hard is a part of them, getting what they want is in their blood. Taking nothing for granted. This is what I know:
They are going to rule the world some day. They just don't know it yet, but they will. I can feel it.
I hope we meet again, that faith throws us together some day, just so we can meet, catch up, spend time, remembering what have been, what might have been. All of it. Cuz we can't re-live our life. This. Right now.This is your life. It's right now, and then there rest of our lives. "
Peace. IDa.
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Hei, Ida!
Jeg beklager så mye for at jeg ikke har kommentert på en stund, det er ikke det at jeg ikke leser bloggen din, for jeg er innom hver dag i håp om å få lese nye nytt:) Grunnen til at jeg ikke kommenterer så mye som jeg pleide, er at innleggene dine etterlater meg uten evne til å kommetere. Du skriver fantastisk, Ida! Du skriver om ting jeg ikke klarer å sette ord på, og du får det til å se så lett ut. Jeg har alltid beundret arbeidet ditt og det du gjør. Jeg vet ikke om jeg er flink nok til å minne deg på det, men jeg håper du vet at jeg er veldig glad i deg og at jeg ser opp til deg.
Klem, Monica
tusen takk, monica. du er en utrolig god venn, haaper alle drommene dine kommer i oppfyllelse en dag. jeg er utrolig glad i deg ogsaa! klem ida.
Om noen i "gjengen", eller andre jeg kjenner, kommer til å lykkes stort så er det én person som er garantert til å være det fremste av dem ;) Det er deg det vettu Ida =) Ikke undervurder deg selv, du vet godt at du er bedre enn de fleste av oss andre :) Savner deg<3
Klem, Henrik
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